Trigger Warning - Sexual Abuse

I was a year ago back when I have my first ever proper relationship. At first, I genuinely did love them and even confess having crush on them and just started out as friend with benefits, then later on decided to be boyfriends.

Eventually, I just felt it becomes kinda one-sided as they don’t respect my boundaries, including when we are doing kink play like strangling me but when I want it to stop, (I tap them multiple times as that what both of us agree for it as ‘Safe Action’) they don’t for me as they want to “push my limit.” I often had to get their hands off my neck.

Naively, I thought they are just forgetful and I had to try remind them, which (unsurprisingly, looking back at it) didn’t work. Somehow, I still love them despite feeling exhausted to be around them and that outside being sexually assaulted but I feel bad to leave them, mainly as I like to think of myself as a cheerleader of trying to make people close to me happy. They have been hatecrimed for being trans in both real life and on Twitter (and yes, I did tried to tell them to limit or even get off it which they refused to do).

I hate what they did to me where I feel scared of experimenting my sexuality and dating in general. It bugs me that I somehow attach douchebags which makes me feel there’s something wrong with me but don’t understand what have I done to deserve that sort of crowd.

I have heard it does but it was generally just an example of “Try this software but note it may not have this feature if this means lot to you” and suggest others like maybe Krita then?

• Linux isn’t Windows. I know that is a no-brainer but it needs to be said so it won’t be as 1:1 to Windows.
• How to install software both in terminal and as well as software manger GUI. Bonus points about compiling software from places like GitHub.
• Packages type and their pros and cons
• Trying to run Windows application via Wine (or some manager like Bottles or Lutris) as well as comparing running same Windows Application from Linux and Windows.
• Alteratives to popular software and list out what it can do and what it doesn’t have so user can see if that feature it doesn’t have would affect them. For example, GIMP doesn’t have full CMYK support which for most users, it isn’t a big idea but for people that want to edit images to be ready for printing, they might want to keep that in mind.

It’s been a few days and that was just going somewhere with my family as my Mum is looking for old magazine for inspiration for sewing. She thought it be better than just trying do out a pin board on Pinterest as she felt she needs to know what she is roughly looking for in the first place compared just flipping through the magazines.

But just want to say as someone that also suffer with depression, I do feel you that it is difficult to leave the house. I find for me, trying find clubs or activities neary area did help a bit of getting me outside a little bit.

I’m currently using GrapheneOS on my Pixel phone I brought secondhand so think I should (for now) be okay?

Otherwise, Linux phone looks interesting but it just relearning both another OS (like iPhone users trying to learn Android and vice versa) and also just I have low income so buying new tech is just expensive.

I don’t want to throw myself a deepend to an OS that I not as familiar with beside on my desktop and Raspberry Pi. Personally, I prefer to know what’s there before I just go blind so at least I can manage my expectation than expected it to do 1:1 stuff that I do on my phone right now.

Hope this means we eventually get The Sims modding scene to the Fediverse as dispute them loving Tumblr, I always find it clunky to try find CCs