Johnny Bartlet - the Frighteners (1996)

  • volvoxvsmarla@sopuli.xyz
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    3 days ago

    Oh can I chime in with a question as well?

    What is that “and then there’s this fucking asshole” muscle? Because from the location that is exactly the asshole that got me hospitalized twice for intercostal neuralgia - once with an ambulance ride, highest doses of morphine (didn’t ease the pain and made me very sick and whiny), and an x ray because they assumed I had broken a rib bone.

    When I had my third attack I recognized it was that fucking thing again and that I could do nothing but wait it out for two days. I also realized there is a connection to emotional distress and it probably has a big psychosomatic factor. I hadn’t had a big attack in years but when I get distressed I still get pain in that stripe next to my spine. It gets tense just writing this out and remembering.

    I’ve given birth and with the biggest honesty and calm asked my partner to kill me during labor. The intercostal neuralgia was about 2% less painful than childbirth and I didn’t end up with a cute baby afterwards so it’s really not worth the pain. It’s cramping up to a point that I think the muscle will rip, then it goes away. After a couple of seconds again, cramp, can’t breathe, can’t talk, gone. For days. Nowadays it’s usually not that bad that I cannot breathe but WHAT IS THIS FUCKER and what can I do to strengthen it and, more importantly, to actively relax it?